When I think about the prospect of nuclear war, a deep, gnawing fear takes hold of me. It’s a fear that doesn’t just linger in the background but often grips me with a stark realization of how fragile everything I hold dear truly is. I worry for myself, my family, my relatives, my friends, and my country. The very thought of a nuclear war is terrifying, and the potential effects are beyond comprehension. The destruction, the loss of life, and the irreversible damage to our world are nightmares I can’t easily shake off. Survival feels like a distant hope when faced with such overwhelming devastation.

One of the things that worry me most is the immediate impact of a nuclear strike— the sheer, unimaginable force that could wipe out entire cities in an instant. I think about my family and the people I love, and I can’t help but feel utterly powerless. A single detonation could mean the end of everything familiar: our homes, our neighborhoods, and all the places that hold our memories. There would be no time to say goodbye, no chance to shield my loved ones from the horror. The thought of losing them in a blinding flash of heat and fire is a fear I find almost unbearable. It’s not just the physical destruction but the abruptness of it all—the suddenness with which everything we know could be reduced to nothing.

Then there are the lingering effects, the silent killers that follow in the aftermath: radiation and nuclear fallout. Even if we somehow survive the initial blast, the air, the water, and the very ground we walk on would be poisoned. I imagine my friends and relatives trying to find food and water, only to realize that everything is contaminated. There would be no safe place, no refuge from the invisible threats that seep into every corner of the environment. I worry about the long-term health effects—radiation sickness, cancer, and the genetic damage that could haunt future generations. The idea that the very air we breathe could be a death sentence is horrifying. The world would become a hostile, toxic place, and the chances of rebuilding a normal life would be slim to none.

I also fear the collapse of society in the wake of such a catastrophe. With infrastructure obliterated and resources scarce, there would be chaos and lawlessness. People would be driven to extremes just to survive. I worry about what kind of world my loved ones would face in those desperate times—a world where necessities like food, water, and medical care would be nearly impossible to secure. I think about my country, struggling to maintain order amid the wreckage, and I fear that our shared sense of community would dissolve into a brutal fight for survival. The loss of humanity in the face of such desperation is a prospect that terrifies me.

Most of all, I am haunted by the sense of futility—the realization that, despite all our advancements and achievements, it could all be wiped out in an instant. The dreams I have for myself and the hopes I hold for the future of my family and friends could be obliterated by a decision made far beyond my control. I feel tremendous sadness when I consider that everything we’ve built could be undone, not by some natural disaster, but by our own hands. The senselessness of it all is what makes it so hard to bear. I worry that we would be left not just with the ruins of our cities, but with the crushing weight of knowing that we brought this devastation upon ourselves.

In the end, my fear of nuclear war isn’t just about the loss of life or the physical destruction—it’s about the loss of hope. It’s the fear that the world I’ve known, the people I care about, and the future I dream of could all be swept away in an instant. The thought that survival would be nearly impossible and that we would be left to endure a grim, inhospitable world keeps me up at night. I pray that we never reach that point, that somehow, reason will prevail over madness, and that the nightmare of nuclear war remains just that—a nightmare, never to become our reality.

IF Christ is the pattern of our humanity, if we truly are meant to be “alter Christus” (another Christ), then we can also conclude that we are meant to also share the very powers of Christ.

This thought can come to our mind when we consider that gospel episode where the people were amazed when at Christ’s word, a devil that possessed a man was rebuked and thrown out. (cfr. Lk 4,31-37) “What word is this, for with authority and power he commands the unclean spirits, and they go out?” the crowd said.

Yes, we can share the supernatural powers of Christ if we would just allow ourselves to be truly identified with him. This possibility should not be far-fetched. Christ himself assured us of this possibility when he said:

“Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.

However, this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.” (M5 17,20-21)
Indeed, through the years, we have seen some men and women who have shown some extraordinary powers because of their faith-driven identification with Christ. We can start to cite St. Peter himself who managed to raise Tabitha from the dead in Lydda. (cfr. Act 9,36-43)

We should at least be open to this possibility though it may not be advisable for us to insist on it, since it can show a trace of pride and arrogance on our part. God can share his special powers with us if he wants to and if we are open to it also.

Let’s remember that gospel episode where Christ, after choosing his apostles in some random way, gave them tremendous powers. “Jesus summoned the Twelve and gave them power and authority over all demons and to cure diseases, and he sent them to proclaim the Kingdom of God and to heal the sick.” (Lk 9,1)

We have to be most aware of what we can have in our hands. We may feel unworthy of all this, as we should, but the undeniable truth is that Christ can share his powers with us. Let us do our part in corresponding to this stupendous truth of our faith.

And the only way to do that is to give our all to God. Let us be generous and magnanimous as God is overwhelmingly generous and magnanimous to all of us. There has to be that mutual dynamic of love and self-giving that has been initiated by God himself. God loves us first, and we have to learn to love him in return, a love that is also expressed in loving everybody just as God loves everybody irrespective of how they are!

This is a call to generosity. “Without cost you have received, without cost you are to give,” Christ told his disciples. (Mt 10,8) Christ himself embodied this principle when he, being God became man, and not contented with that, he went to the extent of offering his life to conquer all our sins. He finally gave himself to us in the sacraments, especially in the sacrament of the Holy Eucharist, which is a real madness of love.

Everyday, let us grow in our identification with Christ. Let’s hope that slowly but steadily we can feel the conviction that we are becoming “other Christ” (alter Christus), if not “Christ himself” (ipse Christus). This will open the way for us to share Christ’s special powers.

When the at least two foreign nationals believed to have links to a Philippine Offshore Gaming Operators (POGO) firm were apprehended at the house in Tuba, Benguet reportedly owned by one attorney Herminio “Harry” Lopez, Jr. (Atty. Roque) for brevity, the senate investigation committee invited him to shed light on his link to POGO.

He however admitted that he was the lawyer of Whirlwind by Katherine Cassandra “Cassy” Li Ong, who is Lucky South’s representative to regulator Philippine Amusement and Gaming Corporation (PAGCOR) in Porac, Pampanga. The said house was the subject of a mission order of the Bureau of Immigration (BI) and the Presidential Anti-Organized Crime Commission (PAOCC) where documents linked to him were found.

During the hearing that Atty. Roque disclosed that he is in the process of obtaining a controlling interest in the corporation by buying out the shares of its incorporators, including the share of Alberto Rodulfo “AR” de la Serna, his executive assistant who he allowed to live in his house.He also stated that the property is registered to a corporation called Biancham Holdings Inc., in which he admitted he had an interest.

He further said that the property’s current registered lessee is a Chinese national named Huan Yun, who is also registered with the homeowners’ association. He admitted having stayed in the said house when he left government service but the property is now leased to a foreign national whose name he could not recall.

In a display of legalese, Atty. Roque vehemently denied having lawyered for any POGO as he claimed that there is no contract where he entered to show any lawyer-client relationship. Even when he was pressed that he was lawyering for Whirlwind company, but the effect, the implication of lawyering for this company, will in effect benefit Lucky South 99. In fact, he accompanied Cassy Ong to PAGCOR and followed up with said agency regarding a financial obligation to the said agency.

The investigation which aims to gather information that would clarify the involvement of Atty. Roque as lawyer of POGOs had been obfuscated by the intertwined tales that seemed to cover the real connections of the persons involved. With all the legal jargon used by Atty. Roque to show that he is not lawyering for POGOs, his attention was called by a member of the investigating team who is a lawyer where a recent jurisprudence was cited on how to determine the so-called lawyer-client relationship.

He went mum when the Supreme Court ruling was read where it was declared that even if there is no contract and even if the services are free, as long as the lawyer represented the client in any capacity, there is a lawyer-client relations. That statement cleared all the intended fuzzing.
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